H3ATH3R

i'm so pothetic

2006-01-16T06:07:01Z

so much to catch up on......so far this year i have fallen in and out of love......gotten in fights and made up......made and lost friends...........cried too long and laughed too hard........point is.........iiii loooove liiiife!!!!!!!!!

no more emo moods people even if it hurts.......enjoy it!!! pain and love and hate and sorrow and everything...it all makes you feel sooooo alive and i wouldn't have it any other way.......♥

1st0ne2go @ 2005-10-23T22:57:00

2005-10-24T03:26:47Z

wow i haven't updated in like 438529087698739856732948756983479857230 years........a lot has happend......good and bad....i'm so confused about everything.....it would be so much eaiser if i could just type the names and what happend with these people but it would be a big mistake....anyway homecoming is coming up on sat. the 29th......i hope its fun....i can't decide on a dress tell me what you think...(just click on the link......duh)

but yeah......comment and let me know what one u like best!! but i'm sleepy......so much love...<3!

1st0ne2go @ 2005-09-18T20:24:00

2005-09-19T00:55:35Z

SOMEONE BROKE INTO MY LIVE JOURNAL!!!!!!!! (i know who you are..it wasn't that hard to figure it out)

I'M NOT A FAT SLUT....(WHY WOLD I SAY THAT ABOUT MYSELF?!)

I DO NOT CUT MYSELF!!!!!!!

I DO NOT LISTEN TO KELLY CLARKSON.....(OKAY SOMETIMES I DO...lol)

i have not had sex with aj......i have never had sex......i'm one of those good kids...but i have made some bad friend choices apparently......love ya! ♥ ♥

1st0ne2go @ 2005-09-18T15:38:00

2005-09-18T19:41:50Z

Hey guys, I lost my virginity to AJ :-/ And I found out he doesn't even like me. Boy, do I feel like a fat slut now.

♥

2005-09-07T13:55:58Z

well i'm at school again.....bored...doing juries....i just got back from chicago yesterday it was fun but not worth getting this sick...i missed everyone like woah...but i'm back now and happy...yay....it kinda sucks that the only time i can find to update is here at school....oh well....probably cuz mr. rosenblatt blocked myspace..haha but i think kaela wants to get on to look up music for her juries* so imma go...ily....and HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGELA!!!!! (see i put it in pink cuz its your favorite color...hehe) ♥ ♥ ♥

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2005-08-31T14:19:19Z

at school..............bored as hellllllllllllll.....................just did juries.................english is next.................have a test...................didn't study.......................fucked.

1st0ne2go @ 2005-08-12T15:48:00

2005-08-12T19:53:19Z

Fill in your answers and reply.

1. I ____ Heather.

2. Heather is ____.

3. If I were alone with Heather, I would ____.

4. I've seen Heather's _____.

5. Heather has a really nice ____.

6. Heather does _____.

7. Heather is great at ____.

8. I would ____ with Heather.

9. I have ____ with Heather.

10. When Heather ____-____ I get a really big ____. (this one can have up to 3 words)

11. LOOK AT HEATHER'S _____!

12. Heather is thinking ____.

13. Would Heather ever ____?

14. I have Heather's _____.

15.I wish I could _____ with Heather right now!

1st0ne2go @ 2005-08-07T01:50:00

2005-08-07T05:58:04Z

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Heather
Birthday:	08/25/90
Birthplace:	Chicago, IL
Current Location:	Palmetto, FL
Eye Color:	light brown
Hair Color:	brown
Height:	5' 4"
Right Handed or Left Handed:	right
Your Heritage:	Greek, American indian, irish, french, english
The Shoes You Wore Today:	abercrombie flip flops
Your Weakness:	drowning, sharks, heights
Your Fears:	being alone forever
Your Perfect Pizza:	none
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	finish my year at the school i started at
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	lmao
Thoughts First Waking Up:	damn that was a good dream ; )
Your Best Physical Feature:	i like my teeth
Your Bedtime:	when i get tired
Your Most Missed Memory:	for me to know
Pepsi or Coke:	Coke
MacDonalds or Burger King:	McDonalds
Single or Group Dates:	both
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	either
Chocolate or Vanilla:	chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:	sick...neither
Do you Smoke:	no
Do you Swear:	yeah
Do you Sing:	yeah
Do you Shower Daily:	i try to
Have you Been in Love:	whats love?
Do you want to go to College:	yess
Do you want to get Married:	yess
Do you belive in yourself:	for the most part i do
Do you get Motion Sickness:	nope
Do you think you are Attractive:	at times
Are you a Health Freak:	haha no way
Do you get along with your Parents:	yes
Do you like Thunderstorms:	i looove thunder storms
Do you play an Instrument:	yes
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	yes
In the past month have you Smoked:	uhh...no
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	no
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	yes
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	yeah but i had help
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	eww..no
In the past month have you been on Stage:	uh huh
In the past month have you been Dumped:	yeah
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	yeah
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	no
Ever been Drunk:	yupp
Ever been called a Tease:	ha...yeah
Ever been Beaten up:	nope
Ever Shoplifted:	nope
How do you want to Die:	happy
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	happy
What country would you most like to Visit:	Greece
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	blue or green
Favourite Hair Color:	brown
Short or Long Hair:	either but no too long or too short
Height:	6 ft. or taller
Weight:	not fat
Best Clothing Style:	what ever they like best...
Number of Drugs I have taken:	not many
Number of CDs I own:	over 200
Number of Piercings:	some but not too many
Number of Tattoos:	some but not too many
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	don't have enought fingers or toes to count
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

♥

2005-08-05T01:32:35Z

i just got home this morning from the best summer of my entire life! school starts in 3 days....i'm stoked

hey hey hey!

2005-07-09T19:22:57Z

well just to let everyone know i've been spending the summer here in chicago with my beautiful cousin jenni....i have so much to write but i don't have much time at all right now....jenni has the slowest computer known to mankind so i haven't been on line unless i was at someones house for five minutes at a time....but i miss everyone sooooo much and i'm comming home on july 28...jennis coming too....its kinda weird cuz she came home with me about the same time last year too right before school so idk....were trying to start a trend i guess...but hey....theres a lot thats happened and i don't think its the best idea to type it all out but i met my 2nd cousin and my great aunt dorthy today for like the 5th time but its the first i can really remember....it was strange walking into there house it was like being in greece....i wish i knew more about my background....but i can't change the way i was raised "a little white girl" but it was nice to see them....lets see what else happend that i can type in this short amount of time i have...? well...we've been spending a lot of time in the city...i miss it here so much but...its time to go i guess cuz i have nothing else that i think would be a good idea to share...so xoxo <3

1st0ne2go @ 2005-06-02T15:15:00

2005-06-02T19:56:59Z

here are some pics from bright eyes and the faint....

the fucking faint!...........

connor fucking oberst...

sorry there so damn big....

much love

2005-05-29T23:06:16Z

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BANG!

me and cory are together again...<3

grrrr

2005-05-27T13:35:27Z

well sorry i didn't come back and update.....i don't really have much to say......i guess i can say i'm super stoked on going to chicago! i get to see all my old friends again....that should be awsome.....omg i feel like such a dumb ass.....i really don't have anything thing to share......damn.......well i guess this is the best i can do............xoxo <3 hey heres an idea.......how about people take my pretty little quiz that i made : ) Take my Quiz!

1st0ne2go @ 2005-05-26T16:13:00

2005-05-26T20:14:08Z

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hehe cool right....i'll be back later to update

1st0ne2go @ 2005-05-25T00:13:00

2005-05-25T04:21:54Z

15 Things You Probably Never Knew or Thought About

1. At least 5 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.

3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.

4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.

5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.

6. You mean the world to someone.

7. If not for you, someone may not be living.

8. You are special and unique.

9. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.

10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.

11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.

12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.

13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.

14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.

15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great. A Minute They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them. Take the time... to live and love.

hey mattie...i kinda stole this from you.....hehe sorry.... <3

1st0ne2go @ 2005-05-24T12:43:00

2005-05-24T16:44:08Z

Mark the things you HAVE done with a X
then repost this as a new entry

[x]Ran through the sprinklers
[] Ran through the sprinklers naked
[x] Went outside naked
[x] Flashed somebody
[x] Mooned somebody
[x] Went skinny-dipping
[x] Been on a picnic
[x] Been on stage
[x] Been in a parade
[x] Starred in a school play
[x] Drank alcohol
[x] Smoked
[x] Got wasted
[x] Got high
[x] Had a hangover
[] Went to school with a hangover
[x] went to churh with a hangover
[] Went to school high
[x] left school high
[x] Gotten detention
[] Gotten suspended
[] Gotten expelled
[x] Been on a plane
[x] Been on a cruise
[x] Traveled out of your city
[x] Traveled out of your state
[x] Traveled out of your country
[x] Made out with somebody
[] had sex
[] had sex with the opposite sex
[] had sex with the same sex
[] Had a threesome
[x] Fallen in love
[x] Had a boyfriend
[x] Had a girlfriend
[] Gotten dumped
[x] Dumped somebody
[x] Cried over the same sex
[x] Kissed a boy
[x] Kissed a girl
[x] Liked somebody you could never have
[x] Liked a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend
[x] Stolen a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend
[x] Cheated on a test
[] Cheated on a significant other
[] Shoplifted
[] Stolen a car
[] Broken into a house
[] Stolen from your own family
[] Stolen from a friend
[x] Flipped somebody off
[x] Told somebody to fuck themselves
[x] Ate spoiled food on accident
[] Ate spoiled food on purpose
[x] Ate food you dropped on the floor
[] Ate toenail clippings
[x] Drank blood
[] Had a pet
[x] Cried at a funeral
[] Watched somebody's death
[] Killed somebody
[]Cut yourself on purpose
[]Tried to commit suicide
[x]Forced yourself to throw up
[x] Starved yourself
[]Gotten a tattoo
[x]Gotten piercings
[x] Cut your own hair
[x]Fired a gun
[x]Gotten into a fist fight
[x] Gotten into a shouting match
[x] Gotten shampoo in your eye
[x] Swallowed sea/pool water accidently
[x]Swallowed sea/pool water on purpose
[x] Spun yourself in circles to get dizzy on purpose
[x] Laughed so hard it hurt
[x]Laughed so hard you peed in your pants
[x] Wet the bed
[x] Wet the bed at an age past 12
[x]seen a live birth (does T.V count?)
[] Delivered a baby/animal
[x]Had an imaginary friend
[x]Fell down a whole flight of stairs
[x] Tripped on stairs
[x] Tripped on your own feet
[x] Cried in your sleep
[x] Cried in public
[x]Thrown up in public
[x] Lied to ur parents

-heather-
Take my Quiz!

1st0ne2go @ 2005-05-23T15:24:00

2005-05-23T19:26:33Z

well my gay computer has been broken for like ever!! and that sucks!!! but i don't really have much to say....a lot has happened but i don't think it would be nice to put some of it on here....but jenni is comming in a week!! then i'm going back to chicago with her for ten days!! yess!! freedom! well....hmmm....i don't really have any pics to put on here either! man this entry sucks!! sorry to who ever is reading this...my life is boaring! lol jk....but...w/e...umm....bye? <3 oh but i did figure out how to make this colorful and stuff!!!

1st0ne2go @ 2005-05-14T20:39:00

2005-05-15T00:43:43Z

What would you do if...

♥ I ranaway?
♥ We never see eachother again?
♥ I peed in your bed?
♥ I died?
♥ I stole your spigatti-o's?
♥ I lived across the street from you?

Would you...

♥ Come to my wedding?
♥ Come to my funeral?
♥ Come to my sleepover party?
♥ Come to my bachelorette party?
♥ Runaway with me?
♥ Aloud me to be live with you and be your roomate?

Would you say I am...

♥ A drama queen?
♥ Self centered?
♥ Ugly?
♥ Hot?
♥ A party girl?
♥ An un-happy person?

♥ Do you think we'll be friends forever?
♥ Are you gonna put this in your journal to see what I say about you?

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1st0ne2go @ 2005-05-13T11:25:00

2005-05-13T15:24:19Z

me and rachel....

"she will be loved"(i love this pic of you jenni)

you belong to me...i belong to you...

josh...i told you i was gonna put this on my live journal...

1st0ne2go @ 2005-05-12T19:20:00

2005-05-12T23:42:39Z

oops this was supposed to be vvvDOWNvvv there...

You Are 45% Normal

(Somewhat Normal)

While some of your behavior is quite normal...

Other things you do are downright strange

You've got a little of your freak going on

But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

How Normal Are You?

You are

What Rejected Crayon Are You?

Your Seduction Style: The Natural

You don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen.
Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people.
You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find!
People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

You Are 16 Years Old

16

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

1st0ne2go @ 2005-05-12T19:12:00

2005-05-12T23:09:26Z

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

the first day of my life

2005-05-10T19:36:39Z

well...i tried to update a few days ago but it was being retarded and it froze on me 4 fucking times...but me, cory, jeremy, and jessica all went to the outlets and then headed over to the desoto sq. mall and i got my bright eyes cd...i love it...its really good so if you don't have it buy it!!! but after that we went to cody's house for some reason and we waited for like an hour waiting for sean to bring some "requested stuff" for jeremy and cory...well after he showed up we headed to olympia theater and hung out for a while...me and jessica got to talk and i think she is honestly one of the coolest people i've met...rachel showed up but i don't think that rachel really like her or taylor...(taylor is really cool too)...but hey...any way after a while annalee, eric, and some other girl showed up and i got so scared... but annalee came over to me and said i just want one...then she hugged me...and i talked to eric for a while...and he was wearing all this funny corona stuff he had the hat the shirt and the fuckin flip-flops! i asked if he had the thong too but he said they were out...lol...but i had a nice night...but later i got home and i didn't have one single picture on my camera and i was sooooooooooooooooo fucking pissed at rachel cuz she always erases(sp) everything so i blame her...she said she didn't do it...but hey...maybe she did...maybe she didn't i don't know...but...i guess thats about it...my dad got home from the hospital a few days ago..he had knee surgery...and he's in a lot of pain...but he'll get better soon...mom is also talking about going to chicago so now i might not get to go to new mexico with rachel...i'm pretty up set about that but what can i do...mom said that were leaving probably a few days after rachel and that one advantage is that cuz i had to miss going with rachel...she would drive me to the bright eyes and the fain concert...so that would be pretty cool...well not much else to say so..xoxo

*This is the first day of my life - i swear i was born right in the doorway - i went out in the rain and suddenly everything changed there spreading blankets on the beach - yours is the first face that i saw - i think i was blind before i met you - i don't know where i am i don't know where i've been but i know where i want to go - so i thought i'd let you know - these things take forever, i especially am slow - but i relalized that i need you and i wonder if i could come home - remember the time your drove all night - just to meet me in the morning - and i thought it was strange you said everything changed you felt as if you just woke up - and you said, this is the first day of my life - i'm glad i didn't die before i met you - but now i don't care, could go anywhere with you and i'd probably be happy - so if you want to be with me, with these things theres no telling we just have to wait and see - but i'd rather be working for a paycheck then waiting to win the lottery - besides maybe thins time it's different, i mean i really think you like me* -bright eyes

1st0ne2go @ 2005-05-03T14:09:00

2005-05-03T18:39:23Z

omg...i haven't updated in like a million years...! its cuz my mom and dad found out i was talking to annalee on here...but hey they didn't seem to stop me...any ways when my mom found out she said to me..."heather, are you a lesbian?" then she said " no never mind even if you were i know you wouldn't tell me" i was like.."mom its okay...but just curious...even if i was...what could any one do about it?" she said " well......noting...i couldn't keep taking away your phone,computer,and hanging out with friends....but if i had to, i honestly feel if i needed to take you out of school again it would be the right decision..." that got me pretty upset...but w/e... well cory's playing a show this sat. at olympia...i'm stoked to go again!! mom doesn't care either so...that should be something fun...xoxo

"To take this handgun to my eyes
And watch my cells start to rise
The flesh now starts to break as the
Bullet enters like a snake
Through one side of my head
And out the other one
And I'm too scared to live tonight
Too bare to shed my plight
(Please tell me I'm not wanted)
(Please tell me I'm not wanted)
Watch the bones rip through my flesh
A catharsis of my own distress
(Please tell me I'm not wanted)
(Please tell me I'm not)

awww....

2005-04-24T23:19:55Z

well i saw you with your hands above your head-spinning around trying not to look down-but you did and you fell-hard on the ground-and you stumbled around for a good ten minutes-and i said i've never seen anyone look so dumb before-and you laughed and said-i still know how to turn you on babe-

and your the only one who-drags me kicking and screaming through fast dreams-and you the only one who-knows exactly what i mean-

and i probably forgot to tell you this-like that time when i forgot to tell you about that scar-remember how uncomfortable that made you feel-see your not what i expected-and you the only on that knows how to handle me-and your such a great kisser-and i know that you agree

and your the only one who-drags me kicking and screaming through fast dreams-and you the only one who-knows exactly what i mean-

and i hope you can forgive me for that time when i put my hand between your legs-and said it was small-cuz it's really not at all-i guess theres just a part of me that likes to bring you down-just to keep you around-because the day that you realize how amazing you are-your gonna leave me-

and your the only one who-holds my hair back when i'm drunk-and get sick-and you the only one who-knows exactly what i mean and-

and your the only one who-drags me kicking and screaming through fast dreams-and you the only one who-knows exactly what i mean-

exactly what i mean...

well i saw you with your hands above your head-spinning around trying not to look down-but you did and you fell-hard on the ground-

-maria mena

.....

2005-04-22T19:44:39Z

Honest answers, no bullshit.

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now that you know me?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
29. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
33. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
34. Are you going to put this on your lj and see what I say about you?

What Do You Think Of My
Personality?
Eyes?
Hair?
Clothes?
Voice?
Humor?
Mannerisms?
Friends?
Decisions?